1 00:01:12,400 --> 00:01:16,000 We never speak about what happened in Belfast. 2 00:01:29,500 --> 00:01:33,500 Perhaps because beforehand we were so full of hope. 3 00:01:33,500 --> 00:01:36,000 - Hi, Mrs. Gilmore. - Hello. 4 00:01:53,100 --> 00:01:56,600 But a single day can change the course of any life. 5 00:02:18,600 --> 00:02:21,700 Leaving Ireland, leaving our home... 6 00:02:24,600 --> 00:02:26,700 ...alone, 7 00:02:26,800 --> 00:02:29,800 unmoored, adrift. 8 00:02:35,500 --> 00:02:38,300 - And now... - Five? 9 00:02:38,400 --> 00:02:43,100 ...we seem to have become exiles from each other 10 00:02:43,100 --> 00:02:45,700 and the promises we made. 11 00:02:47,900 --> 00:02:50,200 The promise I made. 12 00:02:51,100 --> 00:02:53,500 ? Oh-oh, yes ? 13 00:02:53,500 --> 00:02:56,700 ? I'm the great pretender ? 14 00:02:58,400 --> 00:03:03,500 ? Pretending that I'm doing well ? 15 00:03:04,700 --> 00:03:07,700 ? My need is such ? 16 00:03:07,700 --> 00:03:10,600 ? I pretend too much ? 17 00:03:10,700 --> 00:03:12,400 ? I'm lonely ? 18 00:03:12,500 --> 00:03:16,900 ? But no one can tell... ? 19 00:03:16,900 --> 00:03:18,600 Bye, then. 20 00:03:19,600 --> 00:03:21,400 Bye, darling. 21 00:03:22,900 --> 00:03:25,600 Sure I can't tempt you? 22 00:03:25,700 --> 00:03:27,400 What's that? 23 00:03:29,800 --> 00:03:32,800 ? I played the game ? 24 00:03:32,800 --> 00:03:35,100 ? But to my real shame ? 25 00:03:35,200 --> 00:03:36,900 ? You've left me ? 26 00:03:37,000 --> 00:03:38,900 ? To grieve... ? 27 00:03:46,700 --> 00:03:49,300 ? Snow had fallen ? 28 00:03:49,300 --> 00:03:52,100 ? Snow on snow ? 29 00:03:52,100 --> 00:03:56,000 ? Snow on snow... ? 30 00:03:56,000 --> 00:03:58,500 The body of Christ. 31 00:03:58,500 --> 00:04:00,000 -James... -Amen. 32 00:04:00,000 --> 00:04:03,000 ...chapter four, verse 14 tells us 33 00:04:03,000 --> 00:04:07,700 you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. 34 00:04:09,900 --> 00:04:11,500 What is your life? 35 00:04:11,500 --> 00:04:16,300 You are a mist that appears for a little while 36 00:04:16,400 --> 00:04:18,300 and then vanishes. 37 00:04:18,400 --> 00:04:22,200 On this night of the year more than any other, 38 00:04:22,200 --> 00:04:25,300 we are reminded to cherish those... 39 00:04:25,400 --> 00:04:27,300 I just wanted to say, have a lovely Christmas. 40 00:04:27,400 --> 00:04:30,000 -Oh, happy Christmas, dear. -Yeah, so nice to see you. 41 00:04:30,000 --> 00:04:31,500 -Yeah. -See you soon. 42 00:04:31,500 --> 00:04:32,800 Okay. 43 00:04:34,200 --> 00:04:36,000 Good night. Happy Christmas to you. 44 00:04:36,100 --> 00:04:37,300 -Merry Christmas. -Good night. 45 00:04:37,400 --> 00:04:39,400 Oh, sorry. 46 00:04:56,100 --> 00:04:57,400 I'm back. 47 00:04:57,400 --> 00:04:59,700 It's freezing out there. 48 00:08:11,300 --> 00:08:13,400 It's ringing. 49 00:08:13,400 --> 00:08:15,400 It's the answer machine. 50 00:08:15,400 --> 00:08:17,100 - Leave a message. - Aye. 51 00:08:19,800 --> 00:08:23,000 Hi, Michael. It's Mum and Dad here. 52 00:08:23,000 --> 00:08:24,400 Not sure what time it is 53 00:08:24,500 --> 00:08:25,800 - where you are. - Merry Christmas, son. 54 00:08:25,800 --> 00:08:27,800 Give Toby a kiss from Granddad. 55 00:08:29,500 --> 00:08:32,400 Just calling to see how you and the family are settling in. 56 00:08:32,400 --> 00:08:34,800 You know, first Christmas in your new abode. 57 00:08:34,800 --> 00:08:39,000 All right, well, uh, we're around, so... 58 00:08:40,300 --> 00:08:41,800 Lots of love. 59 00:08:59,400 --> 00:09:01,200 What's this? 60 00:09:01,200 --> 00:09:03,000 Surprise. 61 00:09:04,700 --> 00:09:06,400 Don't tell me. Don't tell me. 62 00:09:08,000 --> 00:09:09,100 Shoes. 63 00:09:12,600 --> 00:09:15,500 It's a little something-- for both of us. 64 00:09:20,500 --> 00:09:22,600 Amsterdam? 65 00:09:22,700 --> 00:09:25,700 I thought it was time for an adventure. 66 00:09:27,300 --> 00:09:30,600 That's... fantastic. 67 00:09:32,600 --> 00:09:35,000 - Flights, hotel? - Mm. 68 00:09:35,000 --> 00:09:38,400 You've outdone yourself, Mrs. Gilmore. 69 00:09:38,500 --> 00:09:40,400 Start the New Year off with a bang. 70 00:09:40,500 --> 00:09:42,100 You'd better believe it. 71 00:09:44,300 --> 00:09:46,900 You and me. 72 00:09:46,900 --> 00:09:48,300 Me and you. 73 00:09:54,600 --> 00:09:56,500 Do you have the passports, or do I? 74 00:09:56,500 --> 00:09:58,500 Passports, eye drops, phone charger. 75 00:09:58,500 --> 00:09:59,800 All in your shoulder bag. 76 00:09:59,800 --> 00:10:01,500 What about my special shampoo? 77 00:10:01,600 --> 00:10:03,700 That, too. 78 00:10:03,800 --> 00:10:06,900 Uh, what's the limit again? 79 00:10:08,700 --> 00:10:10,800 That's six minutes. 80 00:10:10,900 --> 00:10:12,900 Someone whose opinion I trust 81 00:10:12,900 --> 00:10:16,100 once said I was flamboyant wearing this. 82 00:10:16,100 --> 00:10:19,700 I was never entirely sure whether that was a good thing 83 00:10:19,700 --> 00:10:21,900 or a bad thing. 84 00:10:21,900 --> 00:10:23,700 Oh, no, the knot's all wrong. 85 00:10:23,700 --> 00:10:25,700 -What? -Here. 86 00:10:28,400 --> 00:10:30,000 Right. 87 00:10:32,900 --> 00:10:34,500 Don't choke me. 88 00:10:34,500 --> 00:10:36,700 It's tempting. 89 00:10:37,700 --> 00:10:39,400 -All right. -There. 90 00:10:39,400 --> 00:10:41,500 -That's better. -Yeah. That's good. 91 00:10:41,600 --> 00:10:44,000 -Okay. I'll... -Right. 92 00:10:44,000 --> 00:10:46,400 Oh, that's seven minutes. I'm calling them. 93 00:10:47,700 --> 00:10:49,300 Uh, there's the taxi now. 94 00:10:49,400 --> 00:10:51,200 Oh! 95 00:10:51,300 --> 00:10:53,300 Right. Uh... 96 00:10:53,300 --> 00:10:55,900 -Uh, case. -Right. 97 00:10:55,900 --> 00:10:58,200 -Is that everything? -Uh, yeah. Think so. 98 00:10:58,300 --> 00:11:00,200 Sure? 99 00:11:26,600 --> 00:11:28,400 Well, some people have more luggage than sense. 100 00:11:28,400 --> 00:11:29,800 There it is. 101 00:11:31,800 --> 00:11:34,400 Where did you say the shampoo was again? 102 00:11:41,500 --> 00:11:43,900 Sweet before takeoff, modom? 103 00:11:49,400 --> 00:11:50,800 For everyone's comfort and safety, 104 00:11:50,800 --> 00:11:53,000 would you please place all hand baggage 105 00:11:53,000 --> 00:11:54,800 under the seats in front of you 106 00:11:54,800 --> 00:11:57,800 or in the overhead lockers, providing they will close. 107 00:11:59,600 --> 00:12:01,500 Oh. Nearly forgot. 108 00:12:01,500 --> 00:12:03,000 What? 109 00:12:04,500 --> 00:12:07,200 -Stop you from being sick. -How? 110 00:12:08,300 --> 00:12:10,600 It's a wristband. 111 00:12:10,600 --> 00:12:13,400 Someone at church recommended them. 112 00:12:15,100 --> 00:12:17,700 Presses on your pulse point here. 113 00:12:17,800 --> 00:12:20,000 I'd be better off saying a prayer. 114 00:12:20,000 --> 00:12:22,800 Please, God, don't make me vomit on this flight. 115 00:12:54,300 --> 00:12:55,900 - All right? - Yeah. 116 00:12:55,900 --> 00:12:57,900 Looks nice. 117 00:13:03,200 --> 00:13:04,700 - Hello. - Hello. 118 00:13:04,700 --> 00:13:06,000 - Hello. - How are you? 119 00:13:06,100 --> 00:13:07,500 Welcome to Amsterdam. 120 00:13:07,600 --> 00:13:08,900 Thank you. 121 00:13:08,900 --> 00:13:11,100 Oh. 122 00:13:18,500 --> 00:13:19,900 Here we are. 123 00:13:26,400 --> 00:13:29,200 Huh. Hard to tell. 124 00:13:31,500 --> 00:13:33,300 Let's try this way. 125 00:13:35,300 --> 00:13:37,000 Yeah, this is it. 126 00:13:46,800 --> 00:13:49,200 Try the other one. 127 00:13:50,800 --> 00:13:52,000 Oh. 128 00:13:52,000 --> 00:13:54,200 There you go. We're in. 129 00:13:54,900 --> 00:13:57,100 Let there be... 130 00:13:58,100 --> 00:13:59,900 ...light. 131 00:14:00,000 --> 00:14:02,500 Oh, very nice. 132 00:14:02,500 --> 00:14:03,800 Oh. 133 00:14:03,800 --> 00:14:06,400 It's bigger than I thought. 134 00:14:06,500 --> 00:14:07,600 It's lovely. 135 00:14:07,700 --> 00:14:09,300 Yeah. 136 00:14:12,000 --> 00:14:15,200 Oh, would you look at that gray sky? 137 00:14:20,800 --> 00:14:22,700 Maybe next time, you book somewhere 138 00:14:22,800 --> 00:14:24,600 in one of the sunnier hemispheres? 139 00:14:28,000 --> 00:14:30,200 Time to test the bed. 140 00:14:34,500 --> 00:14:36,500 How is it? 141 00:14:36,500 --> 00:14:38,300 Hard as a brick runway. 142 00:14:39,800 --> 00:14:41,700 Perfect. 143 00:14:41,800 --> 00:14:43,800 In fact, uh... 144 00:14:43,900 --> 00:14:45,900 I might have a wee snooze. 145 00:14:46,000 --> 00:14:47,600 Oh, it's the middle of the afternoon. 146 00:14:47,700 --> 00:14:49,200 So? 147 00:14:49,200 --> 00:14:51,200 So, you never take a nap in the middle of the afternoon. 148 00:14:51,300 --> 00:14:53,500 Yeah, but we're on holiday. It's always different. 149 00:14:53,500 --> 00:14:56,800 -You don't mind, do you? -Oh, if you insist. 150 00:14:56,800 --> 00:14:59,500 Half an hour. No more. 151 00:14:59,500 --> 00:15:00,800 Chocolate, sir? 152 00:15:00,800 --> 00:15:02,000 Oh, thank you, modom. 153 00:15:11,700 --> 00:15:13,400 Oh, lovely. 154 00:15:14,500 --> 00:15:16,300 This is the life. 155 00:15:28,800 --> 00:15:31,000 Ooh. 156 00:15:32,200 --> 00:15:33,800 -Ah. Hello. -Hello. 157 00:15:33,900 --> 00:15:35,300 Good evening. 158 00:15:35,300 --> 00:15:37,800 Um, could you recommend somewhere not too pricey 159 00:15:37,800 --> 00:15:40,800 -for a drink this evening? -You are in the right place. 160 00:15:40,900 --> 00:15:42,800 Amsterdam is so full of options. 161 00:15:42,800 --> 00:15:44,200 -Right. -Oh. 162 00:15:53,700 --> 00:15:57,200 ? And the ocean waves do roll ? 163 00:15:57,200 --> 00:16:00,200 ? And the stormy winds do blow... ? 164 00:16:00,200 --> 00:16:03,900 Trust you to find the only Irish pub in Amsterdam. 165 00:16:04,900 --> 00:16:07,700 God, a well-built ant could piss more. 166 00:16:07,700 --> 00:16:09,600 And that's a double. 167 00:16:09,700 --> 00:16:10,800 You're learning. 168 00:16:10,900 --> 00:16:13,100 Killing you with kindness. 169 00:16:15,800 --> 00:16:17,400 You and me. 170 00:16:18,500 --> 00:16:20,100 Me and you. 171 00:16:20,100 --> 00:16:23,100 ? This pretty mermaid has warned me of our doom... ? 172 00:16:23,100 --> 00:16:26,400 I suppose we're lucky to have each other to ignore. 173 00:16:27,800 --> 00:16:31,300 ? And the ocean waves do roll ? 174 00:16:31,300 --> 00:16:34,700 ? And the stormy winds do blow ? 175 00:16:34,700 --> 00:16:38,200 ? And we poor sailors are skipping at the top... ? 176 00:16:38,300 --> 00:16:41,900 The arrogance of amplification in a space this size. 177 00:16:42,000 --> 00:16:43,500 You used to like this one. 178 00:16:43,500 --> 00:16:46,200 ? While the landlubbers lie down below ? 179 00:16:46,300 --> 00:16:49,700 ? This pretty mermaid has warned me of our doom ? 180 00:16:49,700 --> 00:16:52,200 ? We will sink to the bottom of the sea ? 181 00:16:52,200 --> 00:16:53,900 ? For me ? 182 00:16:53,900 --> 00:16:57,800 ? And the ocean waves do roll ? 183 00:16:57,800 --> 00:17:01,200 ? And the stormy winds do blow ? 184 00:17:01,200 --> 00:17:03,700 ? And we poor sailors... ? 185 00:17:06,400 --> 00:17:10,300 You know, it's Ireland's greatest export: 186 00:17:10,300 --> 00:17:14,100 a bullshit lesson on how to enjoy yourself. 187 00:17:15,100 --> 00:17:17,800 -That and the car bomb. -Oh, would you... 188 00:17:17,800 --> 00:17:19,900 Would you come away from the edge? 189 00:17:20,000 --> 00:17:23,200 -Gives me the weirdest feeling. -What does? 190 00:17:29,000 --> 00:17:30,500 Come on. 191 00:17:32,100 --> 00:17:35,300 - All right. - All right. Hold my arm. 192 00:17:35,300 --> 00:17:37,400 You're a liability, you are. 193 00:19:31,600 --> 00:19:33,700 Unlike the Provisional IRA, 194 00:19:33,700 --> 00:19:36,600 the new IRA possesses limited weaponry. 195 00:19:36,600 --> 00:19:40,100 It's enough to mount a campaign but not on the same scale 196 00:19:40,100 --> 00:19:43,000 as the paramilitary groups of the past. 197 00:19:43,100 --> 00:19:45,400 Following its ceasefire in 1994, 198 00:19:45,500 --> 00:19:47,600 the Provisional IRA decommissioned 199 00:19:47,700 --> 00:19:50,600 the bulk of its arsenal, much of it supplied by Libya... 200 00:19:50,700 --> 00:19:52,800 On and on it goes. 201 00:19:53,800 --> 00:19:55,200 Aye. 202 00:19:55,300 --> 00:19:57,800 Are you, uh, done in there? 203 00:19:57,800 --> 00:19:59,200 Aye. 204 00:19:59,200 --> 00:20:00,900 Forensic examination has revealed 205 00:20:00,900 --> 00:20:03,600 that some of the weapons seized from dissident Republicans 206 00:20:03,600 --> 00:20:05,800 trace back to the original stockpiles 207 00:20:05,900 --> 00:20:07,600 of the Provisional IRA. 208 00:20:07,600 --> 00:20:11,400 There are some figures, some senior leadership figures, 209 00:20:11,400 --> 00:20:13,800 who never bought into the peace process... 210 00:20:34,800 --> 00:20:36,900 S-Stella. 211 00:20:36,900 --> 00:20:38,500 Have you seen my statins? 212 00:20:44,200 --> 00:20:45,900 Stella. 213 00:20:45,900 --> 00:20:48,200 My statins-- have you seen them? 214 00:20:59,900 --> 00:21:02,800 Have you looked in the wash bag? 215 00:21:02,900 --> 00:21:05,200 Uh... 216 00:21:12,400 --> 00:21:14,600 Mm. There. 217 00:21:15,900 --> 00:21:17,600 Sorry. 218 00:21:48,800 --> 00:21:50,300 It's a religious community. 219 00:21:50,300 --> 00:21:51,600 A convent? 220 00:21:51,700 --> 00:21:53,900 Uh, no, uh, more like a sanctuary. 221 00:21:54,900 --> 00:21:56,100 I think it's that way. 222 00:21:56,100 --> 00:21:57,800 You think or you know? 223 00:21:57,800 --> 00:21:59,900 'Cause having a map and knowing the way are not the same thing. 224 00:22:00,000 --> 00:22:01,600 Oh, shush. 225 00:22:04,900 --> 00:22:06,400 Here. 226 00:22:14,700 --> 00:22:16,700 Behold. 227 00:22:16,800 --> 00:22:18,600 The Begijnhof. 228 00:22:20,300 --> 00:22:22,000 -In there? -Mm. 229 00:22:24,500 --> 00:22:27,500 Lead on. 230 00:22:46,000 --> 00:22:47,900 It's home to some of the oldest 231 00:22:48,000 --> 00:22:49,500 buildings in the city. 232 00:22:49,600 --> 00:22:51,900 For women who wanted to live alone. 233 00:22:52,000 --> 00:22:56,400 A sisterhood of unmarried Catholic women. 234 00:22:57,700 --> 00:23:01,900 In the 1600s, Catholic worship was... 235 00:23:01,900 --> 00:23:06,200 was banned by the Protestant powers that be. 236 00:23:06,300 --> 00:23:08,800 Why are we whispering? 237 00:23:13,200 --> 00:23:15,600 Public mass wasn't allowed, 238 00:23:15,600 --> 00:23:20,600 so they used to do it in their own homes, you know? 239 00:23:20,700 --> 00:23:22,000 In secret. 240 00:23:22,000 --> 00:23:24,400 Yeah, which is why it doesn't look like a church 241 00:23:24,500 --> 00:23:26,400 -from the outside. -It's camouflaged. 242 00:23:26,400 --> 00:23:30,100 They lived like nuns but... 243 00:23:30,200 --> 00:23:34,800 without all the... all the vows and what have you. 244 00:23:38,900 --> 00:23:40,500 Hmm. 245 00:23:45,000 --> 00:23:48,000 Reminds me of van Gogh's prison yard. 246 00:23:48,100 --> 00:23:49,900 Nonsense. 247 00:23:51,000 --> 00:23:52,200 Excuse me. 248 00:23:52,200 --> 00:23:54,700 Uh, is-is the church open yet? 249 00:23:54,800 --> 00:23:57,400 Which church were you hoping to see? 250 00:23:57,500 --> 00:23:59,100 Oh, you're Irish. 251 00:23:59,100 --> 00:24:00,300 She's Irish. 252 00:24:00,400 --> 00:24:01,900 Guilty as charged. 253 00:24:01,900 --> 00:24:05,400 Waterford originally, but I've lived all over, really. 254 00:24:05,400 --> 00:24:06,600 County Derry. 255 00:24:06,600 --> 00:24:08,500 From a townland nobody's heard of 256 00:24:08,600 --> 00:24:10,500 in a place nobody knows. 257 00:24:10,600 --> 00:24:11,700 Do you live here? 258 00:24:11,800 --> 00:24:14,800 Oh, yes, I'm one of the lucky ones. 259 00:24:14,900 --> 00:24:16,900 And what brings you to Amsterdam? 260 00:24:18,900 --> 00:24:20,900 Well, um... 261 00:24:20,900 --> 00:24:23,600 we're not getting any younger, so... 262 00:24:26,300 --> 00:24:27,700 And tell me again, 263 00:24:27,700 --> 00:24:29,500 which of the churches was it you wanted to see? 264 00:24:29,500 --> 00:24:31,000 The Catholic one. 265 00:24:31,000 --> 00:24:32,200 Oh. 266 00:24:32,300 --> 00:24:33,500 It's just through here. 267 00:24:33,500 --> 00:24:35,900 Oh, thank you. 268 00:24:36,000 --> 00:24:37,500 -Okay. -Gerry. 269 00:26:04,500 --> 00:26:08,100 "The miracle of Amsterdam." 270 00:26:10,900 --> 00:26:13,200 Ye olde graphic novel. 271 00:26:27,000 --> 00:26:32,500 "In the year 1345 in the city of Amsterdam, 272 00:26:32,600 --> 00:26:37,000 a man lay dying in a house on Kalverstraat." 273 00:26:37,100 --> 00:26:39,000 Solid opening gambit. 274 00:26:40,000 --> 00:26:43,000 "A priest came and gave the man communion. 275 00:26:44,000 --> 00:26:48,500 "After he had gone, the sick man felt so unwell 276 00:26:48,600 --> 00:26:50,900 that he vomited up the sacred host..." 277 00:26:51,000 --> 00:26:53,700 -Lovely. -"...into a bowl." 278 00:26:55,300 --> 00:26:57,900 That's really put me in the mood for lunch. 279 00:26:58,900 --> 00:27:02,200 "The man died the next morning, and his maid, 280 00:27:02,200 --> 00:27:07,900 "she threw the contents of the bowl into the fire. 281 00:27:07,900 --> 00:27:09,500 "However, the following day, 282 00:27:09,600 --> 00:27:14,000 "when the maid checked the fireplace... 283 00:27:15,800 --> 00:27:20,800 "...there it was, the host... 284 00:27:22,900 --> 00:27:26,600 ...untouched by the flames." 285 00:27:32,900 --> 00:27:38,300 The priest had this place built to commemorate the miracle. 286 00:27:40,700 --> 00:27:42,200 Which was? 287 00:27:45,700 --> 00:27:48,300 The indestructible host. 288 00:27:48,300 --> 00:27:50,700 Well, it seems a bit... 289 00:27:50,800 --> 00:27:54,400 minor league as miracles go. 290 00:27:54,400 --> 00:27:56,700 You know, a fireproof wafer. 291 00:27:56,700 --> 00:27:58,500 You know as well as I do, Gerry, 292 00:27:58,500 --> 00:28:00,200 that miracles come in all shapes and sizes. 293 00:28:00,300 --> 00:28:04,600 Stella, what happened to you was not miraculous. 294 00:28:04,700 --> 00:28:08,200 Right, it was perfectly within the bounds of possibilit... 295 00:28:42,300 --> 00:28:45,100 Every time I open my glasses case nowadays, 296 00:28:45,200 --> 00:28:48,300 I'm pleasantly surprised to find my glasses. 297 00:28:49,400 --> 00:28:51,200 Now, that's a miracle. 298 00:29:02,300 --> 00:29:04,800 The model married couple. 299 00:29:04,900 --> 00:29:07,300 I think you can see how much he cherishes her. 300 00:29:15,500 --> 00:29:19,000 Why is she protecting her stomach? 301 00:29:44,900 --> 00:29:47,000 Everything all right? 302 00:29:47,000 --> 00:29:49,000 Oh, my feet are throbbing. 303 00:29:49,000 --> 00:29:50,700 I've been on my pegs all morning. 304 00:29:50,700 --> 00:29:52,900 Ah. You're not going to chicken out, are you? 305 00:29:52,900 --> 00:29:55,000 No, no. It's a pit stop. 306 00:29:56,500 --> 00:29:58,000 Okay. 307 00:29:58,100 --> 00:30:01,700 Look, I can't not see The Night Watch, so... 308 00:30:01,700 --> 00:30:03,600 -No. -So, um, why don't we meet 309 00:30:03,700 --> 00:30:06,800 in the caf� in, uh... 310 00:30:06,900 --> 00:30:09,300 -30 minutes for a bit of lunch? -Sure. 311 00:30:09,300 --> 00:30:10,700 Okay? 312 00:30:10,800 --> 00:30:12,700 All right. 313 00:30:12,800 --> 00:30:14,400 See ya. 314 00:30:41,900 --> 00:30:45,200 That cold, it would cut right through you. 315 00:31:05,300 --> 00:31:07,600 Ah, God. 316 00:31:07,600 --> 00:31:09,900 Oh. 317 00:31:10,000 --> 00:31:12,100 Oh, yeah. 318 00:31:20,400 --> 00:31:23,800 Would-would you look what these socks have done to me. 319 00:31:23,800 --> 00:31:25,500 Egg timer. 320 00:31:25,500 --> 00:31:27,000 Look. Feel it. 321 00:31:27,000 --> 00:31:29,200 Uh, no, I'm happy to forgo that at the moment. 322 00:31:31,300 --> 00:31:33,500 Oh, God. 323 00:31:35,800 --> 00:31:37,400 Stop it. 324 00:31:37,400 --> 00:31:40,800 The only thing that feels better than this is... 325 00:31:40,800 --> 00:31:43,300 You'll make it worse. 326 00:31:43,300 --> 00:31:48,500 Oh, I know you shouldn't, but when you give in, Stella... 327 00:31:48,500 --> 00:31:50,700 -when you give in... -You'll draw blood. 328 00:31:54,500 --> 00:31:56,600 Oh, that's better. 329 00:32:07,800 --> 00:32:09,200 What? 330 00:33:18,300 --> 00:33:19,800 Help us with this, will you? 331 00:33:31,800 --> 00:33:33,500 Gerry? 332 00:33:34,900 --> 00:33:36,500 Hmm? 333 00:33:44,300 --> 00:33:47,600 Do you ever think about where you'd like to be buried? 334 00:33:49,900 --> 00:33:52,600 Other than with you, you mean? 335 00:33:55,200 --> 00:33:58,300 At home or in Scotland, I mean. 336 00:34:00,800 --> 00:34:03,100 Is Scotland not home? 337 00:34:11,000 --> 00:34:14,800 What happens when all of this stops? 338 00:34:14,800 --> 00:34:17,500 Then... 339 00:34:17,600 --> 00:34:19,500 there'll be no more. 340 00:34:25,700 --> 00:34:28,300 And what'll be the point then? 341 00:35:39,300 --> 00:35:42,200 Fuck! Jesus! 342 00:35:42,300 --> 00:35:45,200 - Stella! - Yes, I'm coming, Gerry. 343 00:35:45,200 --> 00:35:46,900 -I slipped. -Oh, come on. 344 00:35:46,900 --> 00:35:48,600 Come on. 345 00:35:48,600 --> 00:35:50,900 It's all right. It's all right. 346 00:35:50,900 --> 00:35:52,600 God... 347 00:35:52,600 --> 00:35:54,600 -Oh, God. -It's no laughing matter. 348 00:35:54,600 --> 00:35:56,200 All right. 349 00:35:56,300 --> 00:35:58,300 Wait a minute. Let's get this on you. 350 00:35:58,300 --> 00:35:59,900 It's all right. It's all right. 351 00:36:03,000 --> 00:36:05,100 Get your legs over. 352 00:36:07,200 --> 00:36:08,900 All right, come on. One at a time. 353 00:36:10,400 --> 00:36:11,800 I could've been a goner. 354 00:36:11,900 --> 00:36:14,800 Oh, shh. You're all right. 355 00:36:14,800 --> 00:36:17,800 There. Oh. 356 00:36:17,800 --> 00:36:19,800 -There's no bath mat. -Oh. 357 00:36:21,600 --> 00:36:23,600 Every bath should have a rubber mat. 358 00:36:23,600 --> 00:36:25,000 I know. I know. 359 00:36:25,000 --> 00:36:26,900 Oh. Oh, you're all right. 360 00:36:27,000 --> 00:36:29,400 Come on, now. Steady. Steady. 361 00:36:29,400 --> 00:36:31,500 Oh, you're shaking. 362 00:36:31,600 --> 00:36:35,100 Good man. Good man. 363 00:36:35,100 --> 00:36:36,400 Sorry. 364 00:36:36,500 --> 00:36:38,400 I didn't mean to laugh. 365 00:36:56,700 --> 00:36:58,500 You all right? 366 00:36:58,600 --> 00:37:00,200 Yeah, yeah. 367 00:37:09,400 --> 00:37:10,800 Oh, just pour away. 368 00:37:10,800 --> 00:37:13,300 - Sure? - I'm sure it's fine. 369 00:37:23,000 --> 00:37:24,600 Ah. 370 00:37:25,500 --> 00:37:27,600 - Thank you. - Thanks. 371 00:37:30,400 --> 00:37:33,600 Moderation in all things. 372 00:37:35,500 --> 00:37:38,300 -Especially moderation. -Moderation. 373 00:37:43,000 --> 00:37:44,700 Mm. 374 00:37:55,500 --> 00:37:58,300 There's something I'd like to talk to you about. 375 00:38:06,500 --> 00:38:10,500 Gerry, I'm tired of living the way we do. 376 00:38:10,600 --> 00:38:13,500 I keep... 377 00:38:13,600 --> 00:38:17,200 I keep f-feeling at a loose end, 378 00:38:17,200 --> 00:38:19,100 you know, at home. 379 00:38:19,100 --> 00:38:22,500 What with Michael gone, and-and it doesn't sound like 380 00:38:22,500 --> 00:38:24,800 there's going to be any more grandchildren. 381 00:38:26,200 --> 00:38:28,400 What's my role? 382 00:38:35,800 --> 00:38:39,900 What if we've cut the cloth of our lives all wrong? 383 00:38:42,400 --> 00:38:44,900 There's too... 384 00:38:44,900 --> 00:38:47,900 great a sense of drift. 385 00:38:51,500 --> 00:38:54,400 And I keep thinking... I... 386 00:38:56,900 --> 00:38:59,900 I keep thinking, Gerry, that I-I... 387 00:39:01,500 --> 00:39:03,600 I want to do something better. 388 00:39:03,600 --> 00:39:05,300 What do you mean, better? 389 00:39:05,400 --> 00:39:07,300 Better in what way? 390 00:39:08,700 --> 00:39:11,800 I want to live a more devout life. 391 00:39:12,600 --> 00:39:14,800 It's an unfashionable word nowadays, I know. 392 00:39:14,900 --> 00:39:16,600 Well, there's nothing wrong with you, is there? 393 00:39:16,600 --> 00:39:18,800 Not in any physical sense, no. 394 00:39:18,800 --> 00:39:20,800 No, no, yes, but hang on a minute, Stella. 395 00:39:20,800 --> 00:39:23,100 -Just hang on. No, it... -No, no, no, there's nothing 396 00:39:23,200 --> 00:39:24,300 wrong with me. 397 00:39:24,300 --> 00:39:26,800 Gerry, calm yourself. No. 398 00:39:28,900 --> 00:39:33,400 But I'd like to make an appointment. 399 00:39:33,500 --> 00:39:36,000 You know, the place we... we visited this morning. 400 00:39:36,000 --> 00:39:37,800 Just to speak to someone. 401 00:39:37,800 --> 00:39:41,100 I mean, the talk was that it's a good place 402 00:39:41,200 --> 00:39:45,300 for women like me who want to live a more religious life. 403 00:39:45,300 --> 00:39:49,000 A-A community of like-minded women 404 00:39:49,000 --> 00:39:52,300 interested in-in exploring the big questions. 405 00:39:52,400 --> 00:39:55,000 And there's somebody in there with all the answers, is there? 406 00:40:00,800 --> 00:40:03,000 These are questions that you have to answer 407 00:40:03,100 --> 00:40:04,900 for yourself, Gerry. 408 00:40:10,100 --> 00:40:12,900 We should order. I'm famished. 409 00:41:10,200 --> 00:41:12,200 Did you take your statins? 410 00:41:12,300 --> 00:41:13,700 Yeah. 411 00:42:41,400 --> 00:42:43,000 Thank you. 412 00:43:00,400 --> 00:43:02,800 Uh, are you, um... 413 00:43:04,600 --> 00:43:06,800 ...any... 414 00:43:06,900 --> 00:43:11,700 easier in your mind about yesterday? 415 00:43:21,100 --> 00:43:25,800 See, I'm trying to remember what was said. 416 00:43:35,800 --> 00:43:38,800 Unlucky with the weather, haven't we? 417 00:43:49,000 --> 00:43:51,700 -Stella. -Let's eat. We should eat. 418 00:44:22,600 --> 00:44:24,900 Oh, she's thought of everything. 419 00:47:01,400 --> 00:47:03,200 What is it, love? 420 00:47:05,900 --> 00:47:08,100 Do you remember Schindler's List? 421 00:47:09,200 --> 00:47:11,200 At the end? 422 00:47:11,200 --> 00:47:14,600 The pebbles on the gravestones, the little tokens? 423 00:47:14,600 --> 00:47:18,900 I noticed something similar at the end, on the wee shelf. 424 00:47:21,500 --> 00:47:24,900 I used to do that book with so many classes in school. 425 00:47:25,000 --> 00:47:27,800 And so I thought... 426 00:47:29,800 --> 00:47:32,300 I thought, "Why don't I leave something?" 427 00:47:33,100 --> 00:47:34,600 Yeah, and what's wrong with that? 428 00:47:34,600 --> 00:47:35,800 Oh, it's stupid. 429 00:47:35,900 --> 00:47:37,800 -Says who? -I've no right. 430 00:47:37,800 --> 00:47:40,700 Why? It's a perfectly legitimate gesture. 431 00:47:40,800 --> 00:47:42,300 No, it's shameful is what it is. 432 00:47:42,400 --> 00:47:45,000 -I'm not even Jewish. -Ah, come on, Stella. 433 00:47:45,000 --> 00:47:47,900 Don't take things so seriously. 434 00:47:48,000 --> 00:47:50,100 Gerry, if you can't take the Holocaust seriously... 435 00:47:50,200 --> 00:47:51,800 You know what I mean, right? 436 00:47:51,900 --> 00:47:54,200 You felt something, right? You took action. 437 00:47:54,200 --> 00:47:57,000 -You did a thoughtful thing. -No. No. 438 00:47:57,000 --> 00:48:00,600 I did a selfish thing to make myself feel better. 439 00:48:00,700 --> 00:48:02,500 There's a difference. 440 00:48:04,000 --> 00:48:08,300 Why is anything spiritual so impossible for you to grasp? 441 00:48:12,700 --> 00:48:14,500 Cake? 442 00:48:16,300 --> 00:48:17,900 Cake? 443 00:49:05,200 --> 00:49:06,600 How you doing? 444 00:49:06,600 --> 00:49:08,400 Pint of stout. Thanks. 445 00:49:08,400 --> 00:49:10,000 And a... 446 00:49:12,700 --> 00:49:15,200 ...large whiskey, no ice. 447 00:49:38,700 --> 00:49:41,600 Are you, uh, from Derry? 448 00:49:41,600 --> 00:49:43,300 -Donegal? -Derry. 449 00:49:43,300 --> 00:49:45,800 Ah. I studied there for a while. 450 00:49:45,800 --> 00:49:47,300 -Magee College. -Oh, yeah? 451 00:49:47,300 --> 00:49:50,100 Yeah. A bit before your time, obviously. 452 00:49:50,100 --> 00:49:51,600 Don't tell me. 453 00:49:51,600 --> 00:49:53,600 Accountant? 454 00:49:53,600 --> 00:49:55,700 Architect. 455 00:49:55,800 --> 00:49:56,900 Same again? 456 00:49:57,000 --> 00:49:58,900 ? To play old airs ? 457 00:49:58,900 --> 00:50:01,900 ? We said we could be friends... ? 458 00:50:01,900 --> 00:50:05,200 Graduated in the mid-'70s, 459 00:50:05,300 --> 00:50:08,600 and then as luck would have it, Liam McCormick took me on. 460 00:50:11,100 --> 00:50:14,500 He was a big architect in Belfast back then. 461 00:50:15,800 --> 00:50:21,800 And then they burnt the entire bloody place to the ground. 462 00:50:21,800 --> 00:50:23,600 Petrol bomb. 463 00:50:23,600 --> 00:50:25,700 No one was killed, thank God. 464 00:50:27,000 --> 00:50:30,600 Aye, but all that work, though, you know? 465 00:50:30,600 --> 00:50:34,100 Years and years of hard work up in smoke. 466 00:50:34,100 --> 00:50:36,600 Ireland's fight for fucking freedom. 467 00:50:36,600 --> 00:50:39,700 It wasn't long after that that we left. 468 00:50:39,700 --> 00:50:41,100 To? 469 00:50:41,100 --> 00:50:42,900 Glasgow. 470 00:50:43,000 --> 00:50:44,300 Miss it much? 471 00:50:45,700 --> 00:50:46,800 Work? 472 00:50:46,800 --> 00:50:48,500 Home. 473 00:50:52,700 --> 00:50:55,000 You know, um... 474 00:50:55,000 --> 00:51:00,100 we used to have these scale models. 475 00:51:03,300 --> 00:51:06,400 There was, uh, cars the size of Dinky Toys. 476 00:51:06,500 --> 00:51:11,300 Trees as small as those little cotton buds. 477 00:51:11,300 --> 00:51:12,900 You know? 478 00:51:12,900 --> 00:51:14,900 Tiny figurines. 479 00:51:14,900 --> 00:51:19,500 Mini churches, libraries, streets. 480 00:51:19,500 --> 00:51:22,400 Windows were made out of cellophane. 481 00:51:23,200 --> 00:51:25,400 They were minuscule. 482 00:51:34,300 --> 00:51:37,400 They were dis-architects, those fellas. 483 00:51:39,700 --> 00:51:44,300 The end of human decency, in the name of religion. 484 00:51:48,700 --> 00:51:50,300 I can still smell it. 485 00:51:52,200 --> 00:51:54,200 The black char. 486 00:52:05,900 --> 00:52:10,200 Yes, they certainly leveled my career, anyway. 487 00:52:11,400 --> 00:52:13,800 Strictly third division after that. 488 00:52:16,300 --> 00:52:19,200 -That was on a good day. -Hmm. 489 00:52:21,100 --> 00:52:25,300 Ah, would you look at the dome on that. 490 00:52:27,600 --> 00:52:30,800 Norman Foster, eat your heart out. 491 00:52:36,900 --> 00:52:39,600 ? Though now far away ? 492 00:52:39,600 --> 00:52:43,800 ? Still my thoughts fondly stray ? 493 00:52:43,900 --> 00:52:48,500 ? To the old rustic bridge by the mill... ? 494 00:52:48,600 --> 00:52:51,200 Taste... 495 00:52:51,200 --> 00:52:53,600 texture, temperature, perfect. 496 00:52:58,000 --> 00:53:00,600 Some people say the black stuff transforms you, 497 00:53:00,600 --> 00:53:02,700 you know, brings out the worst in you. 498 00:53:02,800 --> 00:53:04,300 Not me. 499 00:53:05,300 --> 00:53:07,600 I love people. 500 00:53:07,700 --> 00:53:10,100 I've always loved people. I'm a people person. 501 00:53:54,800 --> 00:53:56,000 Stella. 502 00:53:56,100 --> 00:53:58,500 Do you know what I'd like to do tonight? 503 00:53:58,500 --> 00:53:59,800 What? 504 00:53:59,900 --> 00:54:01,600 Something fun. 505 00:54:05,000 --> 00:54:08,100 The railwaymen would leave their burning lanterns 506 00:54:08,100 --> 00:54:10,000 outside the bordello doors. 507 00:54:10,000 --> 00:54:11,700 Red lanterns. 508 00:54:11,700 --> 00:54:14,500 - Red-light district. - Charming. 509 00:54:16,100 --> 00:54:17,700 Oh. 510 00:54:20,500 --> 00:54:23,200 I hesitate to say what turns me on, 511 00:54:23,200 --> 00:54:25,400 but this certainly isn't it. 512 00:54:25,400 --> 00:54:28,100 I just feel so sorry for them. 513 00:54:28,100 --> 00:54:29,400 Aye. 514 00:54:29,400 --> 00:54:31,000 The lighting is awful. 515 00:54:31,100 --> 00:54:32,100 I know. 516 00:54:32,200 --> 00:54:33,800 That's UV lighting. 517 00:54:33,800 --> 00:54:36,800 The same thing the butchers used to use to kill the flies. 518 00:54:38,000 --> 00:54:39,200 I know. 519 00:54:49,100 --> 00:54:51,400 An ant could piss more. 520 00:54:51,400 --> 00:54:54,400 Before you English had gin, we had jenever. 521 00:54:54,400 --> 00:54:55,500 I'm not English. 522 00:54:55,600 --> 00:54:57,600 With a beer, it's very good. 523 00:55:10,600 --> 00:55:12,300 Here we go. 524 00:55:12,300 --> 00:55:14,100 -There. -Oh. 525 00:55:14,100 --> 00:55:15,200 What are we drinking? 526 00:55:15,200 --> 00:55:16,600 -Jenever. -What? 527 00:55:16,700 --> 00:55:18,000 Jenever. 528 00:55:18,000 --> 00:55:20,900 First you drink the beer, then you drink the, uh... 529 00:55:20,900 --> 00:55:22,100 -Jenever? -Jenever. 530 00:55:22,200 --> 00:55:23,900 -Ha. -Cheers. 531 00:55:24,000 --> 00:55:25,500 Cheers. 532 00:55:37,100 --> 00:55:38,600 Ah. 533 00:55:43,100 --> 00:55:45,900 Holy Mary, Mother of God. 534 00:55:54,000 --> 00:55:55,800 Same again? 535 00:56:08,800 --> 00:56:11,600 What bliss to be away from all that noise. 536 00:56:11,700 --> 00:56:12,800 Aye. 537 00:56:17,900 --> 00:56:19,800 - Gerry. - Huh? 538 00:56:21,500 --> 00:56:23,500 Look. 539 00:56:28,900 --> 00:56:30,500 Come on. 540 00:56:56,900 --> 00:56:58,900 Oh, you're beautiful. 541 00:58:06,800 --> 00:58:09,000 Morning. 542 00:58:13,000 --> 00:58:15,200 What's that for? 543 00:58:15,300 --> 00:58:17,600 Body. 544 00:58:17,600 --> 00:58:19,500 Think it would do anything for my body? 545 00:58:21,700 --> 00:58:23,200 What's the occasion? 546 00:58:23,200 --> 00:58:26,200 Oh, thought I'd go back to the Begijnhof again. 547 00:58:26,200 --> 00:58:28,500 The vomiting miracle place? 548 00:58:30,000 --> 00:58:33,100 Uh, d-do you want me to go with you? 549 00:58:34,500 --> 00:58:36,500 No, thank you. Mm. 550 00:58:59,200 --> 00:59:00,700 Oh. 551 00:59:03,400 --> 00:59:04,800 Good morning. 552 00:59:04,900 --> 00:59:06,700 I wonder if you could help me. 553 00:59:09,800 --> 00:59:10,800 Oh. 554 00:59:10,800 --> 00:59:12,800 Thank you. 555 00:59:38,300 --> 00:59:39,800 Excuse me. 556 00:59:39,900 --> 00:59:42,900 Excuse me. Uh, uh, I have a plane to catch. 557 00:59:42,900 --> 00:59:44,300 -A flight. -Please sit. 558 00:59:44,300 --> 00:59:45,800 No, no. 559 00:59:45,800 --> 00:59:47,900 -Is there anyone else that I... -Hello again. 560 00:59:47,900 --> 00:59:49,900 Oh, hello. 561 00:59:50,000 --> 00:59:52,900 -Um... Sorry, just... -Oh, sorry. No, no, no. 562 01:00:00,600 --> 01:00:02,600 -Hi. Um... -Hi. 563 01:00:02,700 --> 01:00:05,700 I'm sorry. Hennie is very busy right now. 564 01:00:06,600 --> 01:00:09,700 But maybe I can help you with something? 565 01:00:10,700 --> 01:00:12,600 That would be lovely, yeah. 566 01:00:13,700 --> 01:00:15,500 My house is just down there. 567 01:00:15,600 --> 01:00:17,200 Right. 568 01:00:19,800 --> 01:00:21,900 The gardens are so beautifully kept. 569 01:00:21,900 --> 01:00:23,500 Yeah. 570 01:00:23,600 --> 01:00:25,200 In the summer, they're extraordinary. 571 01:00:25,200 --> 01:00:29,000 Especially in the evenings, with the night-scented stock. 572 01:00:29,000 --> 01:00:31,100 Oh. 573 01:00:31,100 --> 01:00:32,600 It's so quiet. 574 01:00:32,600 --> 01:00:35,000 It's a meter lower than the outside world. 575 01:00:35,000 --> 01:00:37,700 The noise goes over its head somehow. 576 01:00:39,500 --> 01:00:41,000 This is me here. 577 01:00:41,000 --> 01:00:42,600 Oh. 578 01:01:00,700 --> 01:01:03,200 Stairway to heaven. 579 01:01:03,300 --> 01:01:06,400 The only disadvantage is when you want a grand piano. 580 01:01:06,400 --> 01:01:08,700 Maybe stick to the violin. 581 01:01:11,200 --> 01:01:13,700 Oh, it's lovely. 582 01:01:14,700 --> 01:01:16,200 Minimalist. 583 01:01:16,300 --> 01:01:18,200 Sit yourself down. I'll make us some tea. 584 01:01:18,200 --> 01:01:20,000 Thank you. 585 01:01:44,100 --> 01:01:48,500 ? Lock up the streets and houses ? 586 01:01:48,600 --> 01:01:53,700 ? Because there's something in the air ? 587 01:01:53,700 --> 01:01:59,000 ? We've got to get together sooner or later ? 588 01:01:59,000 --> 01:02:03,500 ? Because the revolution's here ? 589 01:02:03,500 --> 01:02:06,800 ? And you know it's right ? 590 01:02:11,600 --> 01:02:14,700 ? And you know that it's right... ? 591 01:02:14,700 --> 01:02:16,600 So, what can I do for you, Stella? 592 01:02:16,600 --> 01:02:18,500 Well, um... 593 01:02:18,500 --> 01:02:20,300 Oh, do you need sugar? 594 01:02:20,400 --> 01:02:23,100 -Uh, no, thank you. -Oh. 595 01:02:23,100 --> 01:02:25,200 I suppose I just wanted to make an inquiry. 596 01:02:25,300 --> 01:02:29,500 I was in Amsterdam some 30-odd years ago. 597 01:02:29,600 --> 01:02:30,600 Mm-hmm? 598 01:02:30,700 --> 01:02:32,600 Teacher training conference. 599 01:02:32,700 --> 01:02:33,800 Are you a teacher, Stella? 600 01:02:33,800 --> 01:02:35,200 -I was. -Me, too. 601 01:02:35,200 --> 01:02:36,800 Oh. 602 01:02:36,900 --> 01:02:39,800 For years, I was an Irishwoman living in Scotland 603 01:02:39,800 --> 01:02:41,600 teaching English. 604 01:02:41,700 --> 01:02:43,100 An Irishwoman in the Netherlands 605 01:02:43,100 --> 01:02:45,300 teaching comparative religion and maths. 606 01:02:45,400 --> 01:02:48,000 Oh. Right. 607 01:02:48,100 --> 01:02:50,700 Well, that was when I first heard about it. 608 01:02:50,800 --> 01:02:53,100 You know, the setup here. 609 01:02:53,200 --> 01:02:54,200 Ah... 610 01:02:55,200 --> 01:03:00,900 But back then, uh, there was no urgency. 611 01:03:00,900 --> 01:03:02,900 What's the urgency now? 612 01:03:07,200 --> 01:03:11,200 I want to live a more valuable life, Kathy. 613 01:03:12,700 --> 01:03:15,400 To make a contribution. 614 01:03:15,400 --> 01:03:17,600 However small. 615 01:03:17,600 --> 01:03:20,500 You know, so... 616 01:03:20,600 --> 01:03:23,000 I suppose, really, 617 01:03:23,000 --> 01:03:28,000 I just wanted to find out about the life here, you know. 618 01:03:28,000 --> 01:03:32,000 How someone like me might go about applying 619 01:03:32,100 --> 01:03:33,700 to become part of this. 620 01:03:33,800 --> 01:03:35,400 This? 621 01:03:35,400 --> 01:03:37,700 The order. 622 01:03:37,800 --> 01:03:39,300 The sisterhood. 623 01:03:40,400 --> 01:03:42,800 Stella, I don't know where you've been getting 624 01:03:42,900 --> 01:03:45,900 your information from, but... 625 01:03:45,900 --> 01:03:48,600 there's no religious order now. 626 01:03:48,700 --> 01:03:50,400 Not anymore. 627 01:03:50,400 --> 01:03:53,400 There hasn't been a sister living here since 1971. 628 01:03:54,900 --> 01:03:56,200 What is there? 629 01:03:56,300 --> 01:03:59,300 Affordable living for anyone who can afford it. 630 01:04:05,000 --> 01:04:08,100 So the sisterhood is a figment of my imagination? 631 01:04:08,100 --> 01:04:11,200 No. The sisterhood is real. 632 01:04:12,000 --> 01:04:15,100 But the religious aspect... 633 01:04:15,100 --> 01:04:18,900 the religious aspect has all but disappeared. 634 01:04:20,100 --> 01:04:22,500 So I've got this all wrong. 635 01:04:23,500 --> 01:04:26,500 It's possible still for women to live here. 636 01:04:27,400 --> 01:04:29,600 The only criteria is that you must be prepared 637 01:04:29,600 --> 01:04:32,000 to live by yourself. 638 01:04:32,000 --> 01:04:35,500 Older than 30, younger than 65. 639 01:04:36,700 --> 01:04:38,400 That rules me out, then. 640 01:04:38,500 --> 01:04:40,400 Oh, no. 641 01:04:40,500 --> 01:04:42,100 I don't believe it. 642 01:04:43,700 --> 01:04:47,200 The other hitch is that I'm married. 643 01:04:48,700 --> 01:04:53,900 Though I'm not sure how much marriage we've got left in us. 644 01:05:13,000 --> 01:05:15,400 ? Lock up the streets... ? 645 01:05:15,400 --> 01:05:17,400 Can I ask you... 646 01:05:19,700 --> 01:05:21,500 Are-are you... 647 01:05:24,400 --> 01:05:26,300 A Catholic? 648 01:05:27,700 --> 01:05:29,700 Right. 649 01:05:29,700 --> 01:05:31,100 Do you still practice? 650 01:05:31,200 --> 01:05:35,300 You know, prayer and so forth? 651 01:05:47,300 --> 01:05:50,900 Kathy, I... I want to tell you something. 652 01:05:52,600 --> 01:05:56,100 It-it's something I've never really told anyone. 653 01:06:01,900 --> 01:06:05,100 I was involved in an accident. 654 01:06:05,100 --> 01:06:07,300 This was years ago. 655 01:06:09,100 --> 01:06:15,100 It was our first summer together as husband and wife. 656 01:06:16,500 --> 01:06:17,700 I was pregnant. 657 01:06:17,800 --> 01:06:21,300 I mean, very, very, heavily pregnant. 658 01:06:23,600 --> 01:06:26,100 It was unseasonably hot. 659 01:06:27,300 --> 01:06:30,300 Uh, too hot for tights, anyway. 660 01:06:34,400 --> 01:06:38,500 Somebody was ambushing somebody else. 661 01:06:40,600 --> 01:06:44,600 I'm not sure how long I'd been running for, 662 01:06:44,600 --> 01:06:48,000 but all of a sudden, running became falling, 663 01:06:48,000 --> 01:06:51,500 and falling became... 664 01:06:51,500 --> 01:06:53,300 not moving. 665 01:06:54,800 --> 01:06:56,700 Sprawled. 666 01:07:00,800 --> 01:07:02,900 At first, 667 01:07:03,000 --> 01:07:06,500 I worried that I'd wet myself. 668 01:07:07,800 --> 01:07:11,400 And then I-I thought, you know, it-it must be my-my waters. 669 01:07:11,500 --> 01:07:13,400 You know, my waters must have broken. 670 01:07:13,500 --> 01:07:16,000 Mm-hmm. 671 01:07:16,100 --> 01:07:19,100 But then, of course, I realized. 672 01:07:24,200 --> 01:07:26,300 So I said a prayer. 673 01:07:28,300 --> 01:07:31,500 As I lay there on the street not-not-not knowing 674 01:07:31,500 --> 01:07:34,500 one way or the other what was going to happen. 675 01:07:37,300 --> 01:07:40,500 I said the only prayer I could remember. 676 01:07:42,800 --> 01:07:46,000 As an act of contrition, and I-I knew that wasn't right. 677 01:07:46,000 --> 01:07:48,100 I knew that wasn't what I wanted. 678 01:07:48,100 --> 01:07:49,600 I mean, that's to save yourself. 679 01:07:49,600 --> 01:07:53,400 I knew that, and I wanted to save my baby. 680 01:07:55,100 --> 01:07:57,200 So I said... 681 01:08:01,900 --> 01:08:05,300 I said, "Lord... 682 01:08:05,400 --> 01:08:09,200 "spare the child inside my womb... 683 01:08:11,500 --> 01:08:15,800 ...and I will devote the rest of my life to you." 684 01:08:19,100 --> 01:08:22,300 "Lord, let my baby live, 685 01:08:22,300 --> 01:08:27,200 "and I will devote the rest of my life... 686 01:08:29,100 --> 01:08:31,100 ...to you." 687 01:08:39,600 --> 01:08:41,300 Now... 688 01:08:44,900 --> 01:08:47,200 ...either it was a miracle 689 01:08:47,200 --> 01:08:51,300 or, as Gerry would say, the wee one must have ducked, 690 01:08:51,400 --> 01:08:53,900 but the bullet passed right through me, 691 01:08:53,900 --> 01:08:56,300 in one side and out the other. 692 01:08:57,700 --> 01:08:59,300 The only damage was that 693 01:08:59,400 --> 01:09:02,200 I wouldn't be able to have any more children. 694 01:09:08,000 --> 01:09:11,700 But that vow... 695 01:09:11,700 --> 01:09:13,700 that pledge... 696 01:09:13,800 --> 01:09:16,400 Kathy, that bargain... 697 01:09:18,200 --> 01:09:20,500 ...there is a debt to be paid, 698 01:09:20,500 --> 01:09:25,200 and I've been looking for a way to pay it ever since. 699 01:09:30,600 --> 01:09:33,200 I've never breathed a word of this to-to anyone, 700 01:09:33,300 --> 01:09:35,200 not even to Gerry. 701 01:09:41,200 --> 01:09:43,800 But here I am... 702 01:09:45,200 --> 01:09:47,500 ...at my age, and... 703 01:09:52,800 --> 01:09:54,700 ...and I've failed. 704 01:09:59,300 --> 01:10:01,100 I'm a failure. 705 01:13:00,300 --> 01:13:03,500 You still haven't told me how your meeting went. 706 01:13:04,200 --> 01:13:06,000 No, I don't suppose I have. 707 01:13:06,000 --> 01:13:08,100 ...are ready for you to proceed 708 01:13:08,100 --> 01:13:10,400 to departure gate number 42. 709 01:13:21,600 --> 01:13:23,400 If you see any unattended luggage 710 01:13:23,500 --> 01:13:25,300 or anything suspicious, please contact 711 01:13:25,300 --> 01:13:27,300 a member of staff immediately. 712 01:14:01,200 --> 01:14:03,100 You'll do yourself damage. 713 01:14:04,600 --> 01:14:06,100 As if you would care. 714 01:14:09,400 --> 01:14:12,500 -Pardon? -You heard me. 715 01:14:12,500 --> 01:14:15,000 Oh, Jesus, give me peace. 716 01:14:54,300 --> 01:14:56,700 -Oh, for God's sake. -Oh. 717 01:15:29,100 --> 01:15:30,700 Here. 718 01:15:57,300 --> 01:15:59,300 Gerry, when we get home... 719 01:16:02,700 --> 01:16:04,800 I'd like to put the flat up for sale, and... 720 01:16:04,900 --> 01:16:07,700 and then I want to get a place of my own. 721 01:16:18,800 --> 01:16:21,600 You'd be better off waiting till summer. 722 01:16:22,800 --> 01:16:25,500 More chance of getting a better price. 723 01:16:25,500 --> 01:16:28,000 Gerry, you're not listening to me. 724 01:16:31,900 --> 01:16:36,300 I can't go on living the way we do. 725 01:16:39,000 --> 01:16:40,200 I won't. 726 01:16:45,500 --> 01:16:47,700 I mean, the drinking. 727 01:16:49,400 --> 01:16:51,300 If I mention it, I'm a nag. 728 01:16:51,400 --> 01:16:54,100 If I don't, then I'm complicit. 729 01:16:56,500 --> 01:16:58,900 Do you not think I don't see it? 730 01:17:00,400 --> 01:17:01,900 Smell it? 731 01:17:04,900 --> 01:17:07,500 Yes, I suppose you could go on doing it behind my back 732 01:17:07,600 --> 01:17:09,400 until you've no liver left. 733 01:17:12,600 --> 01:17:15,000 But it's not just the drinking. 734 01:17:15,100 --> 01:17:18,900 It-it's the deception that goes along with it. 735 01:17:20,700 --> 01:17:22,600 It's ruining you. 736 01:17:26,000 --> 01:17:27,600 Says you. 737 01:17:28,500 --> 01:17:31,900 Well, it's ruining me, that's for sure. 738 01:17:32,700 --> 01:17:36,300 I wouldn't know about that. 739 01:17:38,600 --> 01:17:41,200 You used to be so considerate. 740 01:17:43,900 --> 01:17:45,900 What's happened to you? 741 01:17:47,000 --> 01:17:49,900 These days, you're... you're nothing but appetite. 742 01:17:49,900 --> 01:17:51,900 Okay. Fine, then. I'll stop, okay? 743 01:17:52,000 --> 01:17:53,700 Right? No, I will. I'll quit. 744 01:17:53,800 --> 01:17:55,500 -Oh, Gerry. -No, look, I mean it. 745 01:17:55,500 --> 01:17:58,200 If you're serious about this, then I am, too. 746 01:17:58,300 --> 01:18:00,600 - I've heard it all before. - No, look. 747 01:18:00,600 --> 01:18:02,000 I-I can do it, okay? 748 01:18:02,000 --> 01:18:05,100 I... We can... I... I can change. 749 01:18:07,100 --> 01:18:10,100 I mean, I gave up the cigarettes, didn't I? 750 01:18:11,100 --> 01:18:14,200 You think I don't know how to change? 751 01:18:14,200 --> 01:18:16,100 Huh? 752 01:18:16,100 --> 01:18:20,300 You think I-I don't know what this stuff is doing to me? 753 01:18:20,400 --> 01:18:24,200 Sure, I hate myself as much as you do when I'm drinking. 754 01:18:24,300 --> 01:18:27,900 Well, then, why in God's name do you put yourself through it? 755 01:18:27,900 --> 01:18:32,300 Because I hate myself even more when I'm not. 756 01:18:48,200 --> 01:18:50,900 What about my faith? 757 01:18:50,900 --> 01:18:53,100 What about it? 758 01:18:53,200 --> 01:18:55,800 -We believe in different things. -So? 759 01:18:56,600 --> 01:18:58,900 I mean, we've always known that. 760 01:18:58,900 --> 01:19:01,300 But it's gotten so much worse, Gerry. 761 01:19:01,400 --> 01:19:04,200 I mean... the mockery. 762 01:19:04,200 --> 01:19:08,100 No, I have never mocked you, Stella. 763 01:19:08,100 --> 01:19:10,800 Oh, well, if that's not mockery, then I don't know what is. 764 01:19:10,900 --> 01:19:12,300 It's-it's a debate, right? 765 01:19:12,400 --> 01:19:15,000 We're... No, we're talking about debating the... 766 01:19:15,000 --> 01:19:18,900 the-the greatest deception that we've known 767 01:19:19,000 --> 01:19:21,200 -in our entire lives. -No. No. 768 01:19:21,200 --> 01:19:24,800 We are talking about... 769 01:19:27,000 --> 01:19:28,700 ...respect. 770 01:19:28,700 --> 01:19:29,800 Stella. 771 01:19:29,900 --> 01:19:34,000 The joking and the poking fun and... 772 01:19:34,100 --> 01:19:36,200 the derision and scorn. 773 01:19:36,300 --> 01:19:37,900 I mean, it-it... 774 01:19:39,400 --> 01:19:44,000 It's like you-you have no idea how much you hurt me and... 775 01:19:44,000 --> 01:19:46,000 Or maybe you do and you just don't care anymore. 776 01:19:46,100 --> 01:19:47,600 I'm not sure which is worse. 777 01:19:47,600 --> 01:19:51,200 Surely, Stella, then I have to be allowed my truth. 778 01:19:51,300 --> 01:19:52,400 The truth. 779 01:19:52,400 --> 01:19:53,900 You're doing it again. 780 01:19:53,900 --> 01:19:56,200 You're dismissing me. 781 01:20:04,300 --> 01:20:07,500 All I want is to feel close, you know? 782 01:20:07,500 --> 01:20:09,500 It's too much. 783 01:21:00,100 --> 01:21:02,000 Attention, all passengers 784 01:21:02,000 --> 01:21:05,600 for flight BM1463 to Glasgow... 785 01:21:09,100 --> 01:21:11,400 It's still chucking it down. 786 01:21:20,800 --> 01:21:22,900 Sweet, modom? 787 01:21:33,400 --> 01:21:35,200 Stella. 788 01:21:37,400 --> 01:21:39,100 Uh... 789 01:21:40,800 --> 01:21:44,000 My being with you is 790 01:21:44,000 --> 01:21:47,200 the most wonderful thing there is. 791 01:21:50,200 --> 01:21:52,100 I adore you. 792 01:21:53,400 --> 01:21:57,500 And when I think of the future, all I think about is you. 793 01:21:59,400 --> 01:22:02,100 And I wish I had been there with you in Belfast, 794 01:22:02,200 --> 01:22:04,300 and I know that I'll never be able to share 795 01:22:04,400 --> 01:22:07,100 in what happened to you that day. 796 01:22:10,200 --> 01:22:12,200 But, um... 797 01:22:16,000 --> 01:22:19,300 I-I-I won't ever... 798 01:22:19,300 --> 01:22:22,700 be able to accept your version of events, 799 01:22:22,700 --> 01:22:26,700 and I'll tell you why. 800 01:22:26,800 --> 01:22:29,900 Because... 801 01:22:29,900 --> 01:22:35,500 passing through this world beside you, 802 01:22:35,600 --> 01:22:39,100 that's the real miracle. 803 01:22:46,100 --> 01:22:48,200 The miracle is you. 804 01:23:13,400 --> 01:23:14,600 Uh... 805 01:23:54,600 --> 01:23:56,100 Look. 806 01:23:58,500 --> 01:24:00,100 Is that a plane? 807 01:24:18,200 --> 01:24:20,200 It's not moving. 808 01:24:24,300 --> 01:24:27,000 I think it's the morning star. 809 01:24:34,900 --> 01:24:37,200 Do you think we'll ever get away? 810 01:24:42,700 --> 01:24:45,300 We can only hope. 811 01:25:46,400 --> 01:25:50,300 ? This time tomorrow ? 812 01:25:50,300 --> 01:25:54,100 ? Where will we be? ? 813 01:25:54,100 --> 01:25:57,900 ? On a spaceship somewhere ? 814 01:25:57,900 --> 01:26:04,900 ? Sailing across an empty sea ? 815 01:26:04,900 --> 01:26:08,800 ? This time tomorrow ? 816 01:26:08,800 --> 01:26:13,000 ? What will we know? ? 817 01:26:13,000 --> 01:26:16,500 ? Will we still be here ? 818 01:26:16,500 --> 01:26:22,500 ? Watching an in-flight movie show? ? 819 01:26:22,500 --> 01:26:26,300 ? I'll leave the sun behind me ? 820 01:26:26,300 --> 01:26:28,300 ? And I'll watch the clouds ? 821 01:26:28,300 --> 01:26:33,100 ? As they sadly pass me by ? 822 01:26:33,200 --> 01:26:36,200 ? Seven miles below me ? 823 01:26:36,200 --> 01:26:38,200 ? I can see the world ? 824 01:26:38,200 --> 01:26:43,900 ? And it ain't so big at all ? 825 01:26:44,000 --> 01:26:49,000 ? Well, this time tomorrow ? 826 01:26:49,100 --> 01:26:52,800 ? What will we see? ? 827 01:26:52,800 --> 01:26:56,500 ? Fields full of houses ? 828 01:26:56,500 --> 01:27:03,200 ? Endless rows of crowded streets ? 829 01:27:03,200 --> 01:27:07,000 ? I don't know where I'm going ? 830 01:27:07,000 --> 01:27:11,100 ? I don't want to see ? 831 01:27:11,100 --> 01:27:14,500 ? I feel the world below me ? 832 01:27:14,500 --> 01:27:17,300 -? Looking up ? -? Looking up, looking up ? 833 01:27:17,300 --> 01:27:22,500 ? Looking up at me ? 834 01:27:38,000 --> 01:27:41,200 ? Leave the sun behind me ? 835 01:27:41,200 --> 01:27:43,200 ? And I'll watch the clouds ? 836 01:27:43,200 --> 01:27:46,700 ? As they sadly pass me by ? 837 01:27:46,700 --> 01:27:51,000 ? And I'm in perpetual motion ? 838 01:27:51,000 --> 01:27:52,900 ? And the world below ? 839 01:27:52,900 --> 01:27:58,100 ? Doesn't matter much to me ? 840 01:27:58,100 --> 01:28:03,400 ? Well, this time tomorrow ? 841 01:28:03,500 --> 01:28:07,100 ? Where will we be? ? 842 01:28:07,100 --> 01:28:10,700 ? On a spaceship somewhere ? 843 01:28:10,700 --> 01:28:16,900 ? Sailing across an empty sea ? 844 01:28:16,900 --> 01:28:22,200 ? Well, this time tomorrow ? 845 01:28:25,600 --> 01:28:29,400 ? This time tomorrow ? 846 01:28:29,400 --> 01:28:33,300 ? Where will we be? ?